It was kind of Friday afternoon for me though it's actually Thursday. We always had a wonderful moods in ALC Friday afternoons no matter how we did in the our presentations. This situation made me miss the shopping with girls and Stephanie at Stanford shopping center and also the fast one with Wen before Prom even more. Meeting Peggy, Daniel and Wen made my mood even identical. However, the weather really matters. I miss the sunny days a lot, which always made my inner part feel so bright like I could do everything.
So nice to see Daniel and Peggy today.
Peggy,
I hope that we can have a real conversation with you these days.Our section 5 reunion is nowhere to be seen.
I miss your bright laughters a lot, hope they can surround my life.
Daniel,
It's so sweet of you!
Thank you for the delicious cookies, Wen finished her portion right after our dinner.
It reminded of the days she always grabbed a lot of cookies and ate them on the couch, field, everywhere.
You are so smart knowing that we got lost and couldn't make it before you class.
When I saw you on street, your smile is so familiar but less than what I remember.
Hope to have a meal together some time, see you tomorrow.
Wen sweetie,
Sorry for making you walk that far, though I know my stuff was heavier.
I was surprised that you didn't hug Daniel when we first met him.
It's so amazing that we always have great time and don't feel lonely though we spend shorter time together than we used to. I always know that we have our own life. I also know that you will always be the same girl I love and I will do the same. These thoughts really interested me.
Maybe this is like love. I am not going out of the closet, ladies and gentlemen.
In Chinese, it would be 不黏不膩，但我就是知道。
It's like a mature love because I am in love with a rather maturer girl. Sometimes I will be the childish girl again. I think I become more like a young adult these days gradually as I am getting used to be "not ALC." I could behaved the childish part comfortably because everyone around me was my family. I really miss that naive life, the life we had nothing to worry about expect approaching the end of the August. I felt pity and kind of scared that I found my appetite became less American. Thus, became less healthier. I used to be in a better condition in ALC due to the regular life, balanced diet and good mood every day. Holy crap, I really miss the time.
After almost-one-hour bus, I was not in a mood of taking a bath or just go to bed.I will never do that in Friday afternoon or night, though I may be exhausted.I want to make my room more like my 316 in Alondra.
The first step will be tidy my room and throw out those I don't really need.
I throw a lot of papers and documents today.
I put something into boxes, junior box, senior box, family and travel box, elite camp box, and the Wells boxes.
I added a new memory box, for college.
It would probably be the last year in NTU for me.
Even it's not, things will change after we have different future.
Now I know mine will be different in all cases I am working on.
I just realized this in the morning and took some pictures in our lab on 5th floor.
It's the place I spend most of my time in my past three years.
You can know how long I stay there last year since I officially started to hang around there in my junior year.
Knowing that I am no longer in ALC may be a sudden strike to death for me and I spend time to adapt that.
In the college case, graduation and leaving are slower thing.
We spend time saying good bye rather than spending every colorful day and end in a dramatic way.
Graduation is something that is known when we just entered the college.
It seems to be the time to decelerate now.
But for those who are special, it may be a friendship tranforming process.
And god damn it, too many things reminds me of him.
I didn't put them all into boxes.
I didn't feel like I want to do that.
Maybe I want to take it slowly.
He was part of my life.
Maybe I don't care if he is still there.
However, every time I see those things, I can't help but wondering if I am too cruel to myself.
I am sure there is no problem for me to catch up in the emotion part.
He is not in my picture now, and I feel more comfortably to make my own choice.
After breaking up, I finally found that how he influenced my decision though I think the independent part suffice in me.
As you said, sweetie, It's all about timing.
Time to go to bed...
I didn't do any work today.
But the pressure timing is now reset.
